Yes, my days are now filled with trying to reason with the small person growing inside of me. Peanut (as he/she is affectionately called in our house) has officially grown to one inch in size and is a HUGE pain in my rear! Lol
I love my child, don't get me wrong. But I would also really love to eat, drink, sleep, and have control of my own bodily functions again. We barely made it home from a trip to Walmart the other day before Peanut decided he no longer like the popcorn I had as a snack. Did I also mention I can smell when the people three miles down the road fart? Well, I can.
I have one more month to beg and plead with my little one to just let me keep down basic nutrients and it cannot go by fast enough! I'm ready to get into the fun and glowing part of pregnancy where I can actually enjoy it and marvel at my little wonder. But for now, everyone just please say a prayer that Peanut will give his mommy a good day!
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
I'm sorry ma'am but you don't qualify
*Warning: This is a total vent blog and not meant to offend anyone but I need to vent before I blow up*
When we found out I was pregnant I was uninsured. My work group insurance is outrageously expensive and we've been holding out some hope that B would get picked up permanently by his job so we could get his benefits. We did however decide to finally go with something we could afford and that was actually pretty decent coverage but then they wouldn't take us because of my "pre-exisiting condition".
So, that leads us back to point A and I was now forced to take my work group insurance. I am currently paying almost $400 a month out of my measley salary for the premiums and still have to come up with $3,000 out of pocket seperately to cover my deductible before baby comes. I immediately called up all the state agencies one morning trying to get Medicaid or something to help cover some of this cost because its obviously alot for us. I kept getting the same thing from everyone "I'm sorry, but you don't qualify. Your income is over the limit".
Today, I called our local WIC office to set an appointment for that. It is an amazing government program that helps cover your food costs and then babies formula costs. I had it with my first son and it was a huge help to our family. Seeing as how B and I are living paycheck to paycheck and practically robbing Peter to pay Paul at this point, I figured WIC could be a huge help to us. Boy was I wrong!! I once again don't qualify because we make too much money as a family. HOW IN THE HELL IS THIS POSSIBLE????
Don't look at what I make before taxes! Look at what I bring home!! One of my entire paychecks goes to rent and the other pays our monthly bills and hubs income is paying his bills and helping with the deductible costs. We barely have anything left!! We live off the cheapest of the cheap groceries. God forbid I eat actual fruits and vegetables during this pregnancy!
But, if I didn't work and sat at home all day doing nothing we would qualify for EVERYTHING!! The state of Utah would just hand us money! There would be no questions of anything. We'd get it all. I feel like I'm being punished because I have a job and I pay my bills the responsible way.
Please do not take offense to the above paragraph if you are a stay at home mom. I was with Jackson because we could afford it and I cherished it. That rant was not about you.
I had hopes of moving us into a two bedroom apartment so baby could actually have a nursery and we would have space for things. But that now, is probably out of reach. Thanks to our financial problems we'll be staying in my one bedroom abode and baby's crib will have to go in the dining room. Thankfully we don't have a table to actually get in the way. I will be forced however to get rid of my desk and bookshelves.
Pregnancies are supposed to be so wonderful and exciting. And don't get me wrong, I'm thrilled to be pregnant with this baby. But now I have so much financial stress on me I can't seem to enjoy it. I can't seem to find the happy parts and the exciting stuff. At this point I am honestly not even sure how I will afford to buy diapers and necessities for my child. My family is completely unsupportive of this pregnancy and they will not help like they did with Jackson. We aren't close enough for our friends to throw us the amazing showers they did with Jackson. At a time in my life where I should be glowing and excited about the future, all I can do is cry because I am so stressed about how I will ever afford to give this baby a good life.
When we found out I was pregnant I was uninsured. My work group insurance is outrageously expensive and we've been holding out some hope that B would get picked up permanently by his job so we could get his benefits. We did however decide to finally go with something we could afford and that was actually pretty decent coverage but then they wouldn't take us because of my "pre-exisiting condition".
So, that leads us back to point A and I was now forced to take my work group insurance. I am currently paying almost $400 a month out of my measley salary for the premiums and still have to come up with $3,000 out of pocket seperately to cover my deductible before baby comes. I immediately called up all the state agencies one morning trying to get Medicaid or something to help cover some of this cost because its obviously alot for us. I kept getting the same thing from everyone "I'm sorry, but you don't qualify. Your income is over the limit".
Today, I called our local WIC office to set an appointment for that. It is an amazing government program that helps cover your food costs and then babies formula costs. I had it with my first son and it was a huge help to our family. Seeing as how B and I are living paycheck to paycheck and practically robbing Peter to pay Paul at this point, I figured WIC could be a huge help to us. Boy was I wrong!! I once again don't qualify because we make too much money as a family. HOW IN THE HELL IS THIS POSSIBLE????
Don't look at what I make before taxes! Look at what I bring home!! One of my entire paychecks goes to rent and the other pays our monthly bills and hubs income is paying his bills and helping with the deductible costs. We barely have anything left!! We live off the cheapest of the cheap groceries. God forbid I eat actual fruits and vegetables during this pregnancy!
But, if I didn't work and sat at home all day doing nothing we would qualify for EVERYTHING!! The state of Utah would just hand us money! There would be no questions of anything. We'd get it all. I feel like I'm being punished because I have a job and I pay my bills the responsible way.
Please do not take offense to the above paragraph if you are a stay at home mom. I was with Jackson because we could afford it and I cherished it. That rant was not about you.
I had hopes of moving us into a two bedroom apartment so baby could actually have a nursery and we would have space for things. But that now, is probably out of reach. Thanks to our financial problems we'll be staying in my one bedroom abode and baby's crib will have to go in the dining room. Thankfully we don't have a table to actually get in the way. I will be forced however to get rid of my desk and bookshelves.
Pregnancies are supposed to be so wonderful and exciting. And don't get me wrong, I'm thrilled to be pregnant with this baby. But now I have so much financial stress on me I can't seem to enjoy it. I can't seem to find the happy parts and the exciting stuff. At this point I am honestly not even sure how I will afford to buy diapers and necessities for my child. My family is completely unsupportive of this pregnancy and they will not help like they did with Jackson. We aren't close enough for our friends to throw us the amazing showers they did with Jackson. At a time in my life where I should be glowing and excited about the future, all I can do is cry because I am so stressed about how I will ever afford to give this baby a good life.
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Then Comes a Baby in a Baby Carriage....
Yep!! We're pregnant! I haven't blogged in awhile holding back spilling the beans. We had a huge scare where the doctor thought the pregnancy might be ectopic but everything turned out ok. I am just barely pregnant (like 4 weeks) and am due around the middle of November. We are SUPER excited and cannot wait to welcome our new addition into th world. After our next ultrasound where there will actually be something to see I'll post some pics!
Friday, February 18, 2011
Day 11
Day 11: A picture of something you hate
Ok, seriously I can't even bring myself to post a picture of the thing I hate the most because it creeps me out that bad. Snakes. I HATE snakes. I am deathly afraid of them. I think they are disgusting and gross and terribly scary. I'm getting creeped out seriously writing this. Yuck!!!
Ok, seriously I can't even bring myself to post a picture of the thing I hate the most because it creeps me out that bad. Snakes. I HATE snakes. I am deathly afraid of them. I think they are disgusting and gross and terribly scary. I'm getting creeped out seriously writing this. Yuck!!!
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Day 10
Day 10: The person you do the silliest things with.
Meet Angie, mysometimes when she isn't too busy with her own life BFF. This picture is pretty old. But that's how long it's been since we spent any quality time with. We used to be attached at the hip before she got pregnant. Now she's enjoying the life of a stay at home mommy and we don't get to go out and do the stupid things we used to enjoy. But boy do we have some memories!!
Meet Angie, my
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
New Cover!!
So, check out my new bloggy!!! I'm so excited because its my very first custom blog and its PERFECT!!! I have to give a huge shout out to Aly over at Bridgework Blogs for taking my spazziness and turning it into this!! If any of you ladies want anything custom and at an awesome price, check her out!! SHE ROCKS!
Day 9
Day 9: A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most.
Ok, so this post is hard for me. I have some great friends who have been by my side through alot of things, but I can also be a really closed off person. There are some inner most things that I don't share with even them. So, as strange as it is, I guess the person who has gotten me through the most would be my son. No matter what is going on and how bad things are, his face and his "Love you mommy" gets me through everything in the world. This picture is old, but its one of my faves!
Ok, so this post is hard for me. I have some great friends who have been by my side through alot of things, but I can also be a really closed off person. There are some inner most things that I don't share with even them. So, as strange as it is, I guess the person who has gotten me through the most would be my son. No matter what is going on and how bad things are, his face and his "Love you mommy" gets me through everything in the world. This picture is old, but its one of my faves!
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