1 year anniversary

One year ago today I was going through some photo's and found a very old picture of me and my first love. Then thanks to some encouragement from my BFF Erin and Facebook stalking super-sluething I found my now brother-in-law and got the phone number to my now husband.

One year ago tomorrow I heard my husband's voice for the very first time in 6 years. It brought me to tears as soon as I heard and I knew I could never let him go again. After just a few days of talking, turns out he felt the same way.

We got back together and are now married and expecting our first child. 11 years ago I loved this man more than anything on the earth and today, I love him more. It has been an exciting year of ups and downs and many blessings. I cannot wait for the next 5 months to pass so that I can see him holding our son. Then shortly after that we will celebrate our one year wedding anniversary.

Every day, good or bad, I thank God for bringing this man back into my life. After so many years of hurt and abuse and shame, he reminds me that I am worthy of the love he offers. We have our ups and downs just like any other married couple, but at the end of the day all that matters is that I'd rather fight with him than make love with anyone else.

Oh, and to celebrate we are taking off to where it all began 11 years ago tomorrow........ GA!!! So I will be away from the blog for about 10 days but will return with stories and pictures. Have a great week!

18 Wks and Bedrest

We had our official look yesterday and baby Peanut is a boy!!! We were completely thrilled until my doctor started discussing concerns that my blood pressure is high. I had full blown pre-eclampsia with my first son which caused him to be delivered early. I expected this would happen again but to hear that its happening already I was shocked and scared to death.

My blood pressure was 148/96. Normally my blood pressure runs low so the fact that at 18 wks its already this high is very bad. My dr is very concerned and is currently consulting specialists about my condition. I am sitting in bed with my laptop, season 3 of Las Vegas, and my stitching. I can return back to work on Monday pending nothing bad happens this weekend. But when I do I'm on strict orders to stay off my feet as much as possible. I also have to watch my diet and return to the doctor for a re-check in two weeks.

Obviously other than the given risks at stake, I am incredibly upset at this turn of events in my pregnancy as we have recently planned a trip home to GA that is taking place in 2 1/2 weeks. If my condition doesn't change, doctor will not let me travel. :(

Everyone please play that we can continue being pregnant without further complications and that Peanut will keep cooking until his allotted time!

What Justice System?

After dropping off the hubs at work this morning I was listening to the radio and the lady was talking about Lindsay Lohan is expected in court YET AGAIN to plead no contest on this whole theft thing. They mentioned that awhile back she was sentenced to 120 days in jail for a probation violation back in 2007. My spidey senses got the best of me so I did a little internet reading and found out that even though she's sentenced to 120 days she's likely to serve less than two weeks total. WTF????

I happen to have a huge problem with this. If anyone remembers, or for my newer followers who weren't around for this, my husband spent 3 days in jail for hunting without a license. THREE DAYS PEOPLE!!!!! For something incredibly stupid that turned out to never be indicted and no charges filed anyways. But because he was on a current probation for a DUI he was stuck in jail with a ridiculously high bond.

My blood has been boiling over this all morning. Why are celebrities not held accountable like normal people? Why will she not have to serve her entire 120 days in jail? Now, I'm not saying she's guilty or innocent and thats really not my rant here. My rant is, why is the justice system so screwed up? The big news here in Utah yesterday was how a woman was released from prison after 17 years there because a judge had now declared she was factually innocent of her charges. How come she lost 17 years of her life in prison when she was innocent in the first place? How come the people who can afford to spend thousands of thousands of dollars waste tax payers money on courts to stay out of jail instead of just accepting the responsibility for their actions and doing the time they were sentenced to?

13 Years

Thirteen years ago tomorrow I lost the most important man in my life, my daddy. He was my entire world. He was not just my daddy, but my best friend. Thirteen years later and this week has still not gotten any easier. It starts today because that was the day he went into the hospital, but he actually didn't pass away until tomorrow. Then his birthday is May 7th. He would've been 78 this year.

He missed all of the major events in my life. My high school graduation, never got to walk me down the aisle, and will never know his amazing grandson who carries his name. And he'll never meet this new baby about to enter into our life.

It breaks my heart that he's not here. He was such an amazing man. Full of warmth and love and life. He always had a smile on his face and went out of his way to make sure I was happy. He loved his children, his grandchildren, and his friends. He would've done anything for anybody. When he loved it was with his whole heart.

My dad was an amazing baker. He could make Elmer's glue taste like creme brulee. I have the best memories of my childhood making a huge mess in his kitchen baking cookies, cakes, and the Norwegian classic, lefsa. I got my first scar on his oven making chocolate chip cookies when I was six. Luckily for me, but not my waistline, I inherited his skills. I can't wait to pass them down to my children and only hope they mean half as much to them.

Nothing can take away my pain today. Nothing can stop my tears for the emptiness I have. I know the Lord will give me the strength to get through this week and make it another year without him. But today, I'm feeling the pain of not being able to pick up the phone and call him just to tell him I love him.

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11 weeks

Peanut finally looks like a baby!! We even got to see his/her little hands moving. Apparently baby is just like daddy and does not like having their picture taken. And definitely did not like his/her space being invaded.

But we did get to finally hear the heartbeat and everything looks great!! As of today, Baby S will be making his/her appearance in the world on October 27th via scheduled c-section

A Shoutout to my hubs

Ok, you guys may find this gooey and yucky but I just have to give a shout out to my sweet husband.

This pregnancy has absolutely been kicking my butt. The morning sickness is 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. Last Tuesday I even missed my first day at work due to the fact that I could not physically stop throwing up for more than 5 minutes. What's worse, the sickness comes out of no where!!! I was literally in my kitchen packing my lunch for work when all of a sudden I just threw up all over the floor. No warning. No nausea. Just bam!

My sweet husband has been so amazing for the last 11 weeks. He has put up with my constant crying, cravings, nausea, all of it. He lays in bed with me and watches movies when I'm to sick to move. Last night he crushed me ice in the blender so I can eat them little by little to help my stomach ache.

He has been cleaning, cooking, doing all the laundry. Everything. My house would be an absolute case for FEMA if it weren't for him. For all you military wives out there who go through this by yourselves, I commend you!! You have strength I'm not sure I'd have. I am so grateful that he has been here for me supporting me. He is definitely my rock!!